my daughter is sick
vomiting
like everything she does
it seems to flow
with Ease
my son
is more like me
he stirred last night
as I was scrubbing the carpet
“no mum
I won’t do it”
even asleep
he is resisting
my pregnancies with both
followed the same groove
with him inside
i wrestled with everything
that had ever happened
with her
i no longer
felt the need
i sometimes wonder
what was the greater influence
did i shape them
or did they change me