musings and meditations

another layer of self deception put down to protect who disguised in the behaviour of others who do i see

familiar tightness in my shoulder are we nearly there? this constant grumble this boy of mine have i done something wrong? could i get everything right? and nothing would change this boy of mine

  the Balance of my Life tips from fear —— to Trust   all the signs are here   there is no more need for vigilence   instead I trust the Silence   and She who emerges from it   she flows she sees   she is All of me and more then me   […]

  my dreams were not very accessible to me   as i begin to stir into wakefulness my mind is quick to assert control   and i slip from the easy flow of the dream   into arbitrating the dream what must i do about this, that, and the other   recently dreaming i was […]

  I felt the energy descend upon me,  as Maddy first welcomed Ensyth into our group. Warmth and Love,  a reassuring beginning to the evening’s energy work.   Later,  as we went into meditation,  I felt the energy inside my Self,  warm, loving, beyond time and space.  Bliss. I basked in Expansiveness.   When or […]

  experiencing clarity of perception sensation   vibrantly present energetically emerging   through each moment      

  desire like a tightness a coil winding in and up   desire the anticipation desiring release    

  so far i have not spelt out my intention to write every day   in that respect i have not suceeded   in the past i would have punished my self for this   today i write because i feel to   there is no blame    

  in the middle of my crisis for a moment I experienced my emotions purely and simply as an energy moving through me    

  my writing is squeezed into the corners of my life   do I still refuse to burn brightly and what will happen when I stop resisting the Light