me and self-loathing we have become well aquainted she is another way in which I have learned not to feel
a slow day leaving pain behind by paying attention to that which feels good luxuriating in the now
so far I thought I’d been doing ok with this Mercury retrograde … that’ll teach me to leave the house …
I have this dream I am weightless floating but as my mind begins to stir thoughts surfacing I panic what if I can’t get back to who I am tonight in that same space half asleep half awake I realize that I experience the same fear in Surrender of loosing who I […]
I made this commitment to write every day and already I want to give up but I won’t I will Trust that some new strength will emerge from this
as usual I felt my heat and blood anger rising in response but then unusually I experienced a pause and I had a new choice
so far joy has not been obvious to me but sometimes it sneaks up in an unexpected skip in my step or a giggle at a childish joke
this time of year I rise with the sun blue ink sky turns pink and grey and purple stars fade the hills silhouette over the water once upon a time this natural harbour was full of whales
How quick we are to grasp this modern belief that things will bring joy. And oh the moments I’d have missed if it were true.